[April 4th] Close, Closer



Menahan diri adalah salah satu keahlian seorang Lee Hyukjae.

Hyukjae menggigit bibir bawahnya sebelum mendengar lawan bicaranya mengakhiri percakapan mereka. Suara di ujung telepon sudah digantikan oleh nada yang monoton. Ia tak sempat mengatakan apa pun. Lagi-lagi, selalu begitu. Bibirnya terasa kelu akibat menahan sesuatu yang sudah berada di pangkal tenggorokan. Ia meletakkan kembali gagang telepon berwarna hitam ke tempatnya. Continue reading

She is There–Will Always be


Ia pernah tertawa. Ia tak jarang menangis. Ia sesekali marah. Ia sering bahagia. Layaknya sebuah lingkaran, semuanya berulang. Ia selalu melewati masa-masa yang sama bersamanya. Semua jenis perasaan, serumit apa pun itu, pernah ia rasakan bersamanya.

Berdua, mereka saling memberikan senyum. Berdua, kadang saling meluapkan amarah. Berdua, mereka merasa bahagia. Dan berdua, mereka tak terkalahkan. Continue reading

[!] Help, Help~

July 31, 2015

It’s an unusual feeling. Whether you like him, you dislike him, or even you enjoy his company, it doesn’t matter.

It’s so weird, rare thing. Whether you like her, you dislike her, or even you’re jealous at every man around her, it really doesn’t matter.

In the end, you can’t ask him…

You will never ask her, anyway…

His well-being is important so you don’t want to screw it off.

Her feeling is your priority so you can’t make her confuse.

Til very end, they still can’t ask something that probably has the answer they are afraid to hear. Continue reading

[131115] Stop and Take a Breath


“If I don’t give up on one thing, I can keep going and it will never end.”

I love-yet-hate that quote. It taught me to be more passionate toward something I working on. It taught me to still survive and try. I’d done that, I’ve tried (I really do) but then it’s just like that. Somehow the thing is not going to work no matter how much you put effort onto it.

Perhaps it’s the timing? Perhaps I’m still not good enough? Perhaps… I don’t know, everything seemed too dark for me to understand.

Living with idealism has never been easy. You take one certain wise quote and keep holding onto that so you can remember you only need to live in your quote and everything becomes alright. I believe -believed- that, back then. But no, I forget some important things; that I need to learn how to let go, to understand that life isn’t there to be my wishes-come-true field, to know that I really need to look back and realize my own incompetent self.

The one and really important thing is: I should know when to stop. Continue reading