Dear My Mate

Dear my mate,

I thought I wont cry.. but I did.

I thought I can be the same.. but I wasn’t.

And I thought I can see you as usual.. yes, but I can’t.

 

Dear my mate,

Sometime I wanna stop this.. but something inside me asked me to not.

Sometime I feel so sick of it.. but something taught me to refresh my feeling.

And sometime I really really can’t stand any longer.. but something hold me.

 

Dear my mate,

I’ve listened one song, titled 안녕

Means hello or goodbye, right? So what do you wanna choose? Hello? Or goodbye?

Help me to choose, and it’ll be my decision.

 

Dear my mate,

I don’t wanna choose ‘goodbye’ but I can’t choose ‘hello’ either.

Stupid~ I’m the most stupid girl in this world, or at least in your world? Ah, I forget you don’t have me in your own. I’m just putting myself in there.

I’ve been thinking for a long time.

I’ve been repairing my heart in this time.

But seem like I can’t heal easily.

 

Dear my mate,

It’s hard to say goodbye, so will you forgive me if I don’t choose that?

But I can’t say hello too, so will you also forgive me for that?

I wondered.. what should I do then?

If you ask me why I can’t stay in my place, do not move, do not talk or even choose.

I will answer: it’s too damn pain. Just look at you, in silence, and alone, it makes my heart burdened. If you feel it, can you stand any longer? Cause I can’t.

 

Dear my mate,

I’ve been losing you.. just like Miss Evilia had felt. She couldn’t find him..

I’ve been missing you.. all day long, all the time, but I can’t really feel you..

I’ve been saying to feel you once again.. but I can’t, you never appeared anymore..

 

Dear my God,

Is it my prays answered by You? Is this Your answer?

If so, it must be “Goodbye

No more “Hello

 

Dear my mate,

난 너를 사랑해.. 난 너를 사랑해.. 난 너를 사랑해.. 난 너를 사랑해..

this song keep repeated that words. Over and over in my ears. Do you know how that feeling?

I do love you, yes, you already know.

But let me say one word.. 안녕~

No matter what it means, please remember I still don’t choose.

It’s not “Hello” but not “Goodbye” either. When I’m still missing you, I wont choose..

15 thoughts on “Dear My Mate

  1. walau ga sepenuhnya paham dengan apa yang dirimu maksud diatas,, tapi… secara garis besar aku bisa memahami…
    hmmm,, kalo kata temenku… beginilah memang kisah cerita seorang “Fan Girl”
    hanya bisa melihatnya dari jarak jauh…
    merindukannya dari jarak jauh…
    mendukungnya dari jarak jauh…
    semuanya serba jarak jauh…

    karna bagaimanapun… tetap aja ada semacam dinding pembatas yang membatasi…
    ingin sekali bisa merobohkan dinding pembatas itu dan berusaha mendekat padanya,, tapi… apakah bisa?…

    • dunno, mbaaak~
      i really lost him.. but now i -hope- feel him back.
      I can smile again *lagunya wookie* when i saw him today..

      i dont choose.. not goodbye or hello, i just keep both..
      is yours really end?? ;_____;
      DON’T~~~

    • you shud find him so you can smile~
      don’t want to see you saddd~~

      yes. it’s all end just by the words ‘I think it’s a goodbye’ from my mate🙂
      end right before my birthday lol~~ –_______-
      so hard to start over again, and I think it’s quite good to stay in our own path.
      it’s his decision and all I can do is doing what my mate want. ^^;

      • i hope so.. but i couldnt~~~ ;____;
        he really love to disappear.. *cubitpoo*
        😦
        dont be like that, mom~
        dont care his decision, u always have a choice..
        stay or leave..
        and i choose stay..🙂
        since i cant smile w/o him, i will stay..

      • I know you can’t smile w/o him or her..
        and I’m sure he/she can’t smile widely like usual w/o you too..
        but yeah~ stay and hello, I think it’s a good words for both of you🙂
        You both are lucky, you can start it again, and take lesson from what happened in the past..
        do not hurt your self, if you can’t stand saying goodbye, say hello then..
        it’s just an opinion yoo-ya..
        wishing both of you all the best –> berasa ulang tahun..
        =,=

  2. not him,but her, right?
    C’mon jiyoo. Masalahnya harus diselesaikan. Jangan berlarut2. Nanti yg ada tinggal penyesalan.
    But, kalo masih bingung, solat dulu, tenangin diri dulu.
    Moga yang terbaik yg akan keluar. Keep spirit jiyoo!

  3. Numpang lewat ya…..
    Kayak nya aq tao u agi ad masalah apa….
    Lebih baek u ketemuan ma best F*****
    N jelaskan apa yang ga mengenah dalam hati u, walau harus saling memarahi, tp setidaknya kalian sama2 tao dmn letak kesalahan masing2.
    dia nulis di blognya tentang perasaan ny yg ud ribet selama 5 bulan
    Mungkin u bisa paham posisi dia seperti apa abis baca tulisan nya

    Mungkin chingu bingung aq itu siapa
    Kekekek jawabannya
    Aqu cuma redear biasa yang nyasar2 di blog org…..
    N mungkin abis baca komentar aq ini, chingu bakal marah n mencaci aq dalam hati, tp bagi aku itu ga sebepa di banding ngeliat kalian harus pisah n ga saling bicara agi ( ma’af ya atas coment aq yg ini, kalao ud di baca silakan hapus aza)

    Heheheheh ga usah di pikirkan ya comment aq yang satu ini

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