4-Month

4-month-of-pain

Do you ever know what that means? I’ve spent my 4-month to take care my own self well. I need to heal that scar, so I keep playing I’ll-be-okay game for at least 4-month, and someone bringing it up again easily.

Of course nobody will know.

Do you ever know I lived in the sorrow in 4-month recently? No, nobody will understand how hard I tried to stop that bleeding heart. And now someone make that old scar bleeding once again.

No one can care.

4-month of sorrow, pain, and heartache. I’ve tried in hard way to survive, I’ve felt so damn lonely, and finally I can live free, happy, and keep pretending nothing worst happened for now. But suddenly I feel the same feeling like the first time I got this scar. It’s burden, annoying, and full of pain.

Who will know? 

I don’t need any sympathize or even a new feeling. I-don’t-care mode, can you just show me that act? Just pretend to not know anything, just pretend I’m not exist, just pretend I’m okay.. We have that promise, rite? Even though many people worry about me or this problem, I really really do not wanna talk about it.

Sorry for disappointing all of you..

16 thoughts on “4-Month

  1. *tarik napas dalem2*

    aku bukan orang bijak yg bs ngasih saran..

    Aku bukan orang hum0ris yg bs ngelawak bwt nghibur kamu..

    Mungkin kita bisa menangis bersama?
    Kata org kadang2 nangis bs bkin kita lega..

    Seandainya kita dekat..mungkin aku bs peluk kamu..

  2. kak shelaaa *sksd* aku suka sama semua karya kakak hehehe🙂 maaf yah aku baru coment disini, aku baru tau blog kakak ._.v trus udah ikutan nimbrung lagi, maaf ya kaak v(-,-)v oh iyaa, maaf aku nanya2 kakak udah ngak pernah bikin ff sama kwan nara lagi yah?

  3. oh gitu ya kak soalnya kata temen aku choi ji-yoo sama kwan nara itu kembar, trus dimana ada ji-yoo disitu pasti ada nara begitupun sebaliknya, jadinya ff kaka yg di sjff ngak bakal diterusin lagi ya?

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