Mood: really tired here..
Mind: My precious, Hyukie?
BGM: My Precious
Almost the last day in January, rite? Time always flies so fast, doesn’t let me to breath for a while. I can’t breath properly. The air didn’t want to visit (?) my lungs. That’s hurt, though. So it’s coming again; my uncomfortable mode. Pressure.. I cant feel anything but that, and seems no one even care..
So.. I think I become weaker.
Even if I say I dont really care, but inside I know I was lying. I can not being do not care. But I cant revealed it either.. Who say it’s easy for being introvert? lol.
Ah, the song is changing, should I say the BGM is Still now? *no offense*
Err… I just wanna write in here as much as I can, but it seems I can “go home” only in the weekend? Ah, frustrating~~~
I dunno how is my Poo now.. .__.
Hey, Poo~ are you being nice when I’m not around? How’s ur day recently? I miss you, Poo.. I just need to see ur gummy-smile then I’ll be fine for next week. Baboya~~~ A week is too long, maybe I can stand for.. 2 days? Ah.. I just miss you, I need a strength from you or I’ll down to the ground, Poo..
Something that I know is; my strength is Poo, my spirit is Poo, and my air is Poo.. ;___;
Childish, isn’t it? Haha.. but it was what I feel. It’s just like I dont have anyone but Poo. My real family? Who’s that? My feeling about them wasn’t really good lately. I was ignored, and I can do it either. It’s easy when I tried. I’m trying to do not care about myself..
Err.. and one thing, I’ve felt my half soul is gone away. Dunno where, when, or why I can feel like that.
But it seems I’ve lost my destination.. I felt I’ve lost from Him too. What the hell is wrong with you, Arselia Tiarasani Harjono??
Ah, I opened my weakness again. I’m angry now.. to my fool act~!!
Nope, this time I’m just Arselia Tiarasani Harjono..
The weakest one..